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Sunday 4th February 2001, 12.45pm
I was attempting to write this last night (well, in the early hours of this morning) but I was just tooo tired. Surprised
that some people found the energy to manage a diary update at 2:30am this morning when I was in the land of Zzzz's! Urgh,
whatta weekend - still not feeling 100% after the week but still managed to achieve a decent amount of online shopping and
partying.
Little frustrated that I got up really early this mornign for a parents arrival between 11 and 12, it's now 1.30 and still
no sign *sigh* You would have thought I had learnt by now wouldn't you? Not sure what we're gonna end up doing or which
of Streatham's food establishments we're going to be visiting for a (late) lunch.
There was a theme to this entry, but I've lost that trial of thought in the 45 minutes it's taken me to get this far. Okay
it's now 2.15 and the parents have arrived. I'll finish this later...
Lyrics of the moment:
Monday 19th February 2001, 2.26pm
This is the week the new Web site is due to go live. Aaarrrrrrrggghhhhh! Yup, it's finally got to me - all those emails
asking where is the new site, regular "now you really must finish it thoughts" and of course the weekly email reminding me that
my visitors are slowly dwindling. Job wise the new work site's redesign is about to kick off so Merton will soon
have a decent Internet presence if I get my way (and let's face it I usually do). Fresh has just been commissioned to do the new site for
one of the Croydon MP's so watch this space and if I ever find any other time there's always the Kings Cross Steelers site which
constantly demands my attention...
I never did get the last diary entry finished, the past couple of weeks have been severly mad what with one thing and
another. But slowly it looks like (touch wood) things are finally coming under control - wahey!! Some highlights include:
the parents visit - hey I don't mind admitting I'm close to my family, the EventList trip to see Texas, the EventListGOLD trip
to see New Boy on Valentines Day which was really really great, going to see Arsenal beat Ipswich with Phil and loads of other
stuff. I've even managed to cut down on the online shopping shockingly enough!!
Don't you ever find people are strange? I mean I know some people think it's weird that I even have this Web site and bother
to keep a diary here (take it from me any juicy stuff - should it even exist - wouldn't be found here, do you think I'm *really* stupid??)
but then there's a whole bunch of people that go that extra mile to live their lives on the 'net. I guess they do it a bit
in reality as well. How many times have you stumbled across a personal Web site to see some gushing outpourings of love?
*bleuch* Maybe I've never had a Web site when I've got to that level of romantic involvement *but* how many times do you visit a
couple of months later and find out that's all over? Or even worse there's a new person there? I don't mind admitting that
I have a problem with "those people in love with the concept of being in love". These are the people that feel their lives are
uncompelte without having that missing piece in their lives - they have the job, the car, the home, the friends.. but lack that
partner which means they can win a hand of gay happy families. One distinct person I've met (years ago now) and no I'm not mentioning
names stroke me like this - it was like sitting through an interview for a job, hardly getting to know one another or in the
slightest bit romantic - it was like being in front of an interrogation panel. I don't want to go out with someone because they
are looking to fill a vacancy that they have, I want the starting point to be that I/they want to go out with them/me
because we care and feel for one another. And I don't think I need to make a gushing statement on my Web site to prove that,
but call me a cynic ;-)
Okay enough ranting time to find a quote and then get on with the Web site...
Lyrics of the moment:
Yeah turn down the love songs that you hear
Tuesday 20th February 2001, 8.22pm
Oh I think I was pretty nasty and I don't think today is going to be much better *grin* Honestly people what *are* you
up to? Seems like all the couples I know at the moment are self-destructing [tries to think of an exception] okay all the
gay and lesbian couples I know and have talked to in the past couple of days are self-destructing or having problems. The
only exception to this being the ever couple-y couple of Chris and Chris from Bath. Thank God for one olive branch to
desperately cling onto out there.
The hardest thing is that in a couple of cases I'd really like to go kick some arse and say "hey do you know what
you are doing?" but I can't for one reason and another that I'm not going to go on about here. Makes me glad to be
single, well, some of the time ;-)
Ohh and the news is that people in the Chief Exec's department at work
seem to think I'm too good to be there for very long. I think sane would have been a better word to use but hey I won't argue.
Lyrics of the moment:
Tell me why
Wednesday 21st February 2001, 11.58pm
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I wasn't as busy as I am.
I know restful for one *grin* But being busy does
act as a protection mechanism at the same time. Look at the past couple of days - I've been busy with work, Web site
redesigns galore, stuff round the flat, planning more things for EventList, online
auctions, GMFA seminars, not to mention the social life ... the list goes on. And thank God at the moment. Frown.
Expect a longer entry soon - you've had three in a row, don't complain!!
Lyrics of the moment:
Monday 26th February 2001, 11.24pm
*sigh*
I'd forgotten about how much hard work there always is in the last few hours of getting a Web site ready for launch.
Yesterday's "challenge" was a CGI script failure which stopped all the forms working on the site. I wibbled. But looking
on the bright side, the new site is up, live, working (hopefully) and seems to be attracting a reasonable amount of positive
feedback. That's if you don't include my sister who now wants to kill me after seeign the photo I put of her live. Oops.
Sorry Shell. Cue a first unplanned update.
Of course the other negative side is that having an "active" Web site up and runnign again means that it's f**k wit
central for those members of the community who have nothing better to do. Today's intellectual contribution comes from
"Tigger go softly, I wouldnt want to!" - and if someone could explain that to me I'd be very grateful. Anyway my highly
intellectual reader writes: "you are a very sad mother fucker!!!! I bet you are even a big fan of steps and would
like to fuck 'H' until he screams Tragedy!" well I'd actualled imagined he'd be singing..... ;-) Some people. I should
find out where these people live and send a bill to Social Services for the Community Work I'm doing here, even some
commission from their ISP wouldn't go amiss. At least it's given me an idea for a new feature on the Web site. But if
Lee from Steps happens to be reading this - I'd prefer you to H anyday and if that really, really is
you click here *grin*.
Okay let's pick a quote, do the Steelers weekly update and
then get off to bed I've got the first research results seminar and I'm sooo lookign forward to it that it's untrue.
Lyrics of the moment:
"How was I to know
You never told me
Can't believe that I'm the fool again
And I who thought you were my friend
How was I to know
You never told me."
Westlife "Fool Again" (Westlife, 1999)
"Oh what are you really looking for?
Another partner in your life to abuse and to adore?
Is it lovey dovey stuff,
Do you need a bit of rough?
Get on your knees.
'Cause you can't avoid the sentiment
That echoes in your ear
Saying love will stop the pain
Saying love will kill the fear
Do you believe
You must believe."
Robbie Williams "Supreme" (Sing When You're Winning, 2000)
"I'm always hoping you'll be faithful
But you're not I suppose
We've both given up smoking
'cause it's fatal
So who's matches are those?
Don't we try
Not to break our hearts and make it so hard for ourselves."
Pet Shop Boys "So hard" (Discography, 1991)
"Now the only thing that gives me hope
Is my love of a certain dope
Rose tints my world
Keeps me safe from my trouble and pain."
Rocky Horror Show "Rose Tint My World"
"I've made up my mind
It's time for a new beginning
I'm livin' my life
It's time for a new beginning."
Stephen Gately "New Beginning" (New Beginning, 2000)
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